Kohava Ray
3.3.16
3.3
This is my birth number as well as the number I get from the formula of 1+9+6+9+1+1+3=30,30→3+0=3. It’s like my destiny number. Below is the material I took to draw the picture of this day.
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Mother Goddess statue of Cypress Island.
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A statue of a man who had halo, Koptic.
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A ladder used by Simeon and a bird.
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Saint mother and a child in Santamaria
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The sun
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Acansas
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Promicroceras, marston magna marble
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Volcanic Vent, deep sea, high temperature, Prehistoric time, Catalonia
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Universe which includes the galaxies UGC 10214, NGC4676a, 4676b(collision) and the Hubble ultra-deep field
3.4-3.10.16
3.4
Everything is within God’s plan. I drew my 10-year diary as an Akashic Record.
3.5
I was looking for a pen case. I found it. It’s yellow and made in cotton.
3.6
World Ping Pong competition. It was fun to watch on TV. The picture is taken from the Internet.
3.7
Father’s birthday. We had a roll cake. I sketched the whirls.
3.8
Tadanori Yokoo Museum.
I was inspired by the exhibition. A baby and a fireball (a meteorite) from the ticket design.
3.10
I regret that I involved myself in my parents fighting. I shouldn’t have done it. Watching them interact with each other, I felt the residuum of dinosaurs fighting. Ego and survival mode. Eventually the mass of dinosaurs got terminated.
3.9, 3.11-3.13.16
3.9
I told Tora to study Hebrew hard. The picture is from a wall painting of Bushman. Some letters turned into the letters of hope.
3.11
I had a heartbroken day to think about my husband and my son. I want to take care of them. The face today’s picture is Madonna (Aya Sofia). I copied her but I also put tears on her face.
3.12
Saturday morning in Japan and night in the US. With my husband and my son, we did Shabbat together. I’m happy to have this opportunity these days.
3.13
This day I thought I want to publish a book titled “Experience”. I used Kanji to experience and drew Torii gate. It’s from a photograph I took at Gokono miya shrine in Fushimi Momoyama. The gate Torii is used as a boundary between secular and sacred. I thought I shouldn’t step inside to complain about something God had decided. I appreciate that I can experience various feelings and things in this 3-dimensional world. This seems truer to me than in the past. I feel more organized.
3.14-3.16.16
3.14
I bought Travel goods at a drugstore. It made me feel a little bit of excitement. For today’s picture, I sketched the round form of the case and made them into a game of Othello.
3.15
This day I wanted to have a Polaroid Camera. I don’t have one, so I took the image from the Internet. I named it Unsui. The clouds are streaming behind the camera. I want to use the embossed design.
3.16
I felt the period was later than usual cycle. So, I was a bit worried and went to a obstetrics and gynecology clinic. I was told that it was how it was. So, no worry. I’m relieved… The key word for today’s picture is “relief”. The word makes me think a baby sleeping in a cradle. If it is possible, I want to have another baby. It’s important for all babies in the world having an absolute sense of security. The cradle is rocking on the wave of the ocean. The sky has full of stars.
3.17-3.20.16
3.17
Claim your boundary. I put the boundary using the tape in 4 corners of this paper. (I got to know from Rosemary san).
3.18
Before the spring equinox, I wanted to raise my vibration and to go to Mt. Hiei. While I was drawing, I remembered and triangle by Bashar. Energy gets together to the point.
3.19
A spider makes a network based on the body. What is trapped turns to her food. Like a spider, I want to make a network which attracts necessary things based on my hope, dream, and plans.
Before my body is terminated, I want to let the next generation fly away. Spiders have 8 legs and 3 parts of body = 11 parts. Here are 11 things I can think of which can be the core of me.
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A part of collective consciousness.
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A part of higher mind
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Self-empowerment
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Mother
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Wife
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Artist
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A descendent
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An ancestor
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You
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I am all that I am
3.20
Last year or since last year, I thought myself awakened. But still the test of fire continues. I often crumble down. I thought I should rewire my thought pattern little by little, hoping the effort of rewiring makes me closer to the higher mind. Thinking about this, I drew “Niesen” by Paul Klee.
3.21-3.22.16
3.21
I wrote about co-existence in my spiritual diary. It’s a supreme order to live peacefully with the others. We must help each other. Human in Kanji shows the meaning straight forward. You can’t live by yourself.
3.22
The keyword is friction. I am supposed to be refreshed already around the time of vernal equinox, but I am not…I am filled with anger and hope. I just want to explode all my frustrations which never lead me to the solution-so here is the volcano exploding! But then after the explosion, the land will be fertile more than before. Hopefully I will have riches and happiness which you don’t have to explain or reason why I feel that way at the end of eruption of my anger and frustration. The picture is the land covered with ash and waiting for the green to come out. Also, I drew living things who liked heat, hoping I can deal with any kind of situation which makes me be upset. Also, a rock climber shows myself aiming higher and representing one of those people who keep climbing what ever happens.
3.23-3.25.16
3.23
I put away Kotatsu to clean the floor thoroughly. I cleaned the lamp shade, too. So, I drew 2 light bulbs.
3.24
I went to a bone setting clinic to get massage. So today, I drew a skeleton. “Honeyasume” is relaxation in Japanese. The kanji literally means “relax your bones”. To express my sadness that I can’t live with my family, I put a drop of tear. Ghosts and hobgoblins expresses suffering that I have not been able to become independent for 40 +years.
3.25
I felt terrible too see “Century of New Image”. It’s a documentary on TV. It was absolutely horrible to know again that there were so many wars, wars, wars, wars and wars… Why do we have to fight for so long again and again? We wouldn’t stop fighting unless extraterrestrials came to attack us. We probably need “common enemies”. STILL in the midst of devastation, I believe we still need too see a ray of hope, always, whatever happens. I put phoenix with a halo copied from my room light as a messenger of God as well as auspicious sign.
3.26-3.27.16
3.26
My husband went to his ex-wife’s sister’s house to celebrate his birthday without me. As a matter of course I can’t join them for I am in Japan. But the fear that they are completely OK without me, they themselves are perfect without me kick down to the bottomless abyss. Without me, the puzzle is completed. I have no way to fit in the picture. I am supposed to be a missing piece and it must have a space to return, but I can’t find the space anymore. So, I expressed the unbearable solitude which didn’t fit anywhere.
3.27
This day I thought I want to live constructively rather than being sorry for myself and being stagnant in the misery. The tiger is my son for his name has a kanji meaning tiger and he is stepping forward calmly to make sure that I shouldn’t victimize me unnecessarily. I also thought about Japan where I live now, and which has 4 seasons. I drew flowers from each season.
Spring: cherry blossoms, tulips and dandelions.
Summer: iris, peony
Autumn; autumn grasses, chrysanthemum
Winter: Japanese apricot
3.28.16
3.28
I bought a floor cleaner tool called Korokoro. I can’t miss cleaning my room. To purify the surrounding is absolutely necessary to purify the spirit. So, I drew the Korokoro as well as the picture of Gogan. There is a vision of God who may be approaching to us after being purified.
I also added the bottom of the part. It had rich colors of the nature as an expression of self-empowerment. The color of the river is a reflex of the Sun. The blessing of the sun exists here, too.
3.29.16
3.29
The key sentence today is “Patience is love.” Or “Love is patience.” Patience makes me have an image of water goes down one drop by one drop, flowing into the ocean. If there exists only one time, the ocean must be also the primitive ocean. There, we were just organic matters.
Since then so many different creatures were born and co-existed.
3.30-4.2.16
3.30
I determined to do something I only was able to do in Japan.
3.31
A slot machine. I just missed it. In the middle was a monster who showed his tongue to mock you.
4.1
I feel my sadness amplified. I got to know however, from Sri and Kira, spiritual guide, saying that we should be careful what to think because everything will be amplified.
4.2
The day I went to see Sakura with my mother. We walked along between hundreds of cherry blossoms.