Kohava Ray
2.1.16-2.3.16
2.1
I thought about the soul of words and took a note what popped up in my brain.
2.2
The number 8. A principle ballerina from Japan is in the ballet group from Denmark. She said she cannot miss 8 hours practice every day. I want to have the same amount of time to do creative works since I started to have more passion to be an artist. The picture today is a piece of drawing in which you provide the color. I bought it at Flying Tiger which incidentally, is also from Denmark. I collaged it with some colored grasses. The number 8, key number for the professionals as well as the same form or infinity is there, too.
2.3
I saw a cave painting on YouTube and took the image from the Internet. The time and the place are not accurately to put together, but I enjoyed the spontaneity! It’s a collage.
2.4-2.7.16
2.4
Vampires(evil) don’t come into and reside in you UNLESS you welcome them.
2.5
Vietnam cuisine with my mother in Kyoto. I drew the national flag.
2.6
My husband and son went to Ellenville, New York where they go every year. I felt lonely. He told me that he’d call me from the farm. So, I drew about us in an imaginary farm. I borrowed the picture from Chagall. The color and the collage are by me. The design of the river is from a Japanese traditional design book. The tree is called Sakaki. It’s used for the Japanese holly event and is printed on the one-yen coin.
2.7
I’m so sad and desperate, and felt the whole of me would be ruptured. I drew a woman based on Francis Bacon.
2.8.-2.12.16
2.8
Aron Toraji’s 9-year-old birthday is today. Tommy and I sang Happy Birthday via skype. In the picture this day, whole universe congratulates my son.
2.9
Continued from yesterday, the picture celebrating Aron Toraji’s birthday. This time with a birthday cake. He often shouts how he can eat the sun (the light bulb), so I made the sun birthday cake with 9 water candles.
2.10
This day, I experienced so many different emotions; happiness, anger, sadness, joy etc. In the long run, it’s just a matter of chemical reactions in the brain. So here is the brain and the nervous system. Some of the nerves connect to the universe and to the Sun.
2.11
For the last 10 years, I’ve had a similar relationship with my husband, arguing and fighting the same problems again and again. Also, I’ve not activated myself fully. It’s like me being inside a cocoon all my life. The number 6 is hidden. It expresses the period from my birth to 6 years old. To me, it seemed to be the time I didn’t have to think anything. There were no worries, and just pure happiness filled me.
2.12
All things which have happened until now are the fertilizer and water are essential for living. This is the picture of 2.11. From the cocoon, there comes a rain of mercy. The number of drops is 40 pieces. Each drop is one year. From 7 years old to 47 years old, for 40 years. I was wandering in uncertainty for such a long time. That’s enough. I was fed enough. For the next 40 years, let me blossom.
2.13-2.15.16
2.13
Third eye activation. I drew my face with the third eye. I copied Picasso’s woman’s face.
2.14
I’m tired from thinking about my so-hard-to-get Visa, so I stared at each letter to come up an image. Here how it worked.
V=Vicious
I= Invincible
S=Saber-Toothed Tiger
A=A vicious Invincible Saber-Toothed Tiger
So I drew him.
2.15
I was again told to apply for ESTA. It’s not for me! It’s like me walking over a dangerous bridge where disaster waited. I wished there’d be a temporary bridge like the one which appeared during the Ice Age. People followed the mammoth from Asia to the North American continent. When the Ice Age finished, the bridge was gone, too.
2.16-2.19.16
2.16
The key word for today’s picture is purification. Reading of the history of the earth, I got to know that the plants have been useful for cleansing of the air and the water since ancient times. I drew plants from the Mesozoic: Triassic, Jurassic and Cretaceous.
2.17
Nabe Ryori is so delicious with Ponzu (Japanese vinegar soy sauce) I wanted to celebrate Ponzu. The back scene is the design of a bride costume from an African design book.
2.18,19
My name is shifted from Chika Haga to Chikako Hedberg. With my first name, I could not really activate myself and was always surrounded by fear and worries. It was also worsened by suspicion why God has given me this hardship. On the other hand, Chikako Hedberg, releases herself from all the thoughts which gives her only instability. Now she sublimates herself into bubbles of joy to go higher and higher. It overlaps the picture of 2.17. The top of the bottle (ponzu) is the Sun. The original color for the cap is orange, like the color of the Sun.
2.20-2.23.16
2.20
I have a ringing in both my ears. It gets worse and I am at my wits end. So, I drew the structure of an ear.
2.21
I couldn’t reach my husband. I clicked Skype to call so many times, so I decided to simply draw the futile mouse.
2.22
I cried a lot. Here is the face of “Crying Woman” by Picasso.
2.23
Today when I called Tommy in his office, I saw my drawings on the wall behind his desk. They are prehistoric animals. I wanted to draw them again. It ended up each creature had things to do in this picture. Opabania is worried about the crying woman of 2.22. So, he came to see her. Eodelmanitia felt sympathy toward the PC mouse as the shape was so look alike. He happily rode on it as father and son turtle. Ammonite is overlapped on the ear again finding similar shape.
2.24-2.27.16
2.24
My husband and I have parallel ideas, always.
2.25
The things to process my visa goes so so slow, too slow! It’s like a turtle walk. In the picture he comes up to the land from the sea. He doesn’t care about the speed, just stepping forward.
2.26
I cried all day. The cloud is thickened, and it holds quite a great number of water droplets.
2.27
I went to a beauty salon and permed my hair for the first time in 10 years. There was an amazing coincidence I uncovered by doing so. The beautician who treated my hair had the same birth day, the same address, and furthermore, he had same kanji in his name. What? Parallel Reality? Based on these ideas and this odd experience, I drew a pair of glasses upside down to express the idea that these might be another reality. The turtle here is also from another reality where he actually moves very fast and wins the race. It’s so surprising I put an exclamation mark.
2.28-3.2.16
2.28
I hanged the laundry. I drew one of the hangers I used. It was yellow-green.
2.29
This day, I thought I didn’t need a charm anymore. I don’t know why I felt that way, but I felt that I didn’t need to stick to anything; no amulet, no protection. If the mind sticks with something, it gets heavier and can cause stagnancy. Further, it bothers you to activate yourself in thoroughly becoming you. In fact it is like an anchor which stops the ship going into the vastness of the ocean. Without stagnancy, you feel lighter and can go anywhere you want. The picture today shows the transparency to visualize the idea that we are not holding anything.
3.1
I went to KIX. I remembered the mobile art work by Kalder last time. I didn’t see it today. But I took the image from the internet.
3.2
I went to an exhibition titled: Ecce Homo. I copied the clouds in the background of the leaflet.